All I dream about is church.
Our church, our people... occasionally, my kids and more often my wife, but most of my dream energy seems to go towards church. Generally I'm interacting with some folks from evergreen, trying to work something out, at a community dinner, a Sunday gathering, something. And often, I'm just totally blowing it, or watching events unfold in a negative direction and feeling powerless to stop them.
I understand the importance of dreams and how we process in our sleep, untangle certain knots, deal with certain fears and insecurities... and that's exactly why this bothers me. I guess I'm just a typical male in that the majority of my identity (and thus my insecurities) revolve around my work. And so, I honestly long for the day when the majority of my dreams are about something else. I'm not sure how that will happen, but...
It just feels so... total. As though there's no part of me, even this hidden, deep down part that isn't completely given over to my vocation. It hasn't been a single conscious choice, but maybe the result of hundreds of small conscious and unconscious decisions along the way.
The good news is, I haven't yet started to dream about blogging. I'll let you know when that happens :)
