I hit the wall again on Tuesday...
I have found over the last almost four years now that I cycle through these times of loving the way I need to do ministry and hating it- this nomadic, rootless all-over-town, mostly-in-Starbucks and other coffee places existence.
There are times when I think back to being chained to a particular spot, four walls that never change and I am profoundly grateful for the opportunity to work wherever and the changing scenery.
There are other days when it either doesn't change enough or I long just for a sense of permanency and continuity- a desk that is mine, a place more conducive to thought, prayer, study, reading...
This happens every once in awhile- I'll be driving out of my street first thing in the morning and on days when I don't necessarily have a lot of appointments or have blocked out for study, I'll need to decide where I am going to work... and I'll be hit with this overwhelming desire to never see the inside of a starbucks again. My mind will work through the different options for places to work (too far, too loud, no reliable wi-fi...) and I'll end up driving back and forth while I struggle to land somewhere.
I'm not describing this well.
Let me start again. Every once in awhile I move from happiness and general contentment with my roving work environs through ambivalence straight through to stark raving terror at the thought of having to spend one more second of my life in the loud, jostle-y, "How's your day going so far?", bitter coffee and hard seat hell that is Starbucks.
Yeah... that captures it a little better.
(We actually have an office. It's a small, maybe 10x8 room where we have all our Sunday morning crap piled impossibly high over and around a single desk/chair and two other chairs. It's good for the occasional quiet moment, counseling with a couple or our weekly staff meeting (being myself, Dustin and Chris, our Ass. Pastor). What it's not good for is much else, being as there's no internet. We're getting ready to do budget '08, and I think I need to make a plug for internet at the office... There's a wireless provider there that will do something like $30 a month, so, not too outrageous...)
All that to say, Tuesday... I worked in a Kinkos. :)
