I run a site called PastorHacks.com... here's why:
David Allen of GTD fame has a metaphor he uses... "Mind like water."
He says "Behind all this lay the 'mind like water' concept, an image I'd come across years ago while studying karate. When you throw a pebble into a pond, what does the water do? It responds with total appropriateness to the force and mass of the rock. It does nothing more and nothing less. It doesn't overreact or underreact. It doesn't react at all. It simply interacts with the whatever comes to it and then returns to its natural state. The water can do that only by design. A human being can act this way only if he or she has a conscious system in place and if that system is built on principles that can withstand chaos and stress."
I find it odd that those of us (pastors) who preach the merits of life abundant and "peace that passes understanding" seem so often to live lives of neither.
Why is that?
Partly, it is the nature of our job. We're not just dealing with our own emergencies. In many ways, we're dealing with the life emergencies of everyone in our pastorate. For example, I worry not only about my own marriage, but the marriage of many others, in many different places on the continuum of health. Stress.
But a big part of it is a mess of our own making. We're the ones who live lives without margin, who over commit and underpray. We're the ones trying to run an organization (whether we like it or not) but who resist accountability for our time and how we spend it, as if such a thing were an affront to our authority.
I'm coming to realize that, at least for me... and maybe for you... my disorganization is killing me. It's very literally sapping all the 'bundance out of my abundant life and leaving precious little peace.
Which is why I do this blog.
You know the old saw about the preacher and his/her pet hobby horses? That the guy who preaches a lot on lust is probably preaching to himself?
But rather than lust (no, not perfect in that area) and
preaching on it week in and week out, I do this little blog. It forces
me to think about the level of crapitude in my systems, my inability to
live with any sense of margin, my complete lack of organization and the
resulting emergencies which cost me and my family so much. Got to get
to a point where shalom is a reality in my life, and the peace that Jesus brings isn't drowned out by the chaos I create.
Got to get my act together. Mind like water. Hacking my life, my attitude, my systems to the point where I can deal with what comes my way appropriately, without over reacting, or underreacting.Working hard and trusting God with the results.