Dustin asked me yesterday how the new year's resolution is coming. For those who don't remember, it was "kick ass"- which basically encompassed taking it up a notch on everything. He confessed that he wondered when he first read that whether I was speaking of the proverbial ass in general, or specific asses, and whether his was among them. My question is why it has to be an either/or.
At any rate, I told him "fairly well"- It's been a good week of trying to be more attentive to the things to which I'd like to be attentive- my wife, my kids, my health (the eating part hasn't magically changed itself, surprise, surprise), my work... I've been able to get a lot done, feel good about the work I'm doing, be more centered on and present to Scripture and prayer and what God is saying and doing in my life right now. The only part I feel less than kick-ass on is a commitment to write and blog more. It seems like it just doesn't all fit- that I can't be attentive to all those things and be someone who writes often and well.
Or maybe I should say, there probably is a way to fit it, a way to establish rhythms of creativity and life where it all fits and comes together- I just haven't discovered what those are. I'm getting up even a bit earlier these days- before 5 now, so maybe that will help.
And maybe it will explain why the next time you are with me past 8pm and I start slurring my words and nodding of during lulls in the conversation. It's not the white wine spritzer- it's just past my bedtime.
If the tension is between writer and husband/father,let the blogging slide. If it gets worked out, I'll enjoy your posts. :)
Posted by: Brian | January 07, 2009 at 08:47 AM