I was sitting with a new church planter yesterday, talking. He asked, "So how have you avoided burn out?" And my first thought, honestly?
It's not so much burnout maybe as... rust. Ennui.
As I thought and as we talked I came to think that what I'm feeling is something of the natural extension of the "church planters" personality- that entrepreneurial make-up that pushes us to new things, keeps us from settling in and being satisfied with the status quo... and maybe causes certain people to blow up their lives every so often.
I've been feeling a desire to be challenged, to be not so much pushed, but pulled purposefully into something deeper, more difficult, more...
Don't worry- I'm not going anywhere.
But I do think this next stage of my life is going to involve going deeper into mentoring others, building skills in listening and coaching which will express itself in writing and speaking more.
So- first things- blog more. This blog is like a withering plant- dry, dusty, in desperate need of revival. And that's just a symptom really of where my state of creativity is. Writing is a skill that gets easier the more you do. A writer writes... always™!
Second- finish my book proposal for the video venue/internet church thing. I think the time is right for a critical look- Lord knows there's a new "pro" book every week...
Third, in my pastoral work, I need to get more focused. I feel as though an effort to bring others along and hand off certain things has left me feeling a blurry and rootless as to my role. So, time to take a slice of the pie of our community and go deeper while continuing to try to bring new and existing leadership along. As it is now, I feel like an effort to step back and let others step forward has resulted in few people feeling pastored by me. It shouldn't be an either/or.
Fourth, my New Year's resolution to "kick ass" needs some, uh... resuscitation. Physically, mentally, spiritually... Ruts suck. Just say no.
But I will say this- I'm well on my way to an epic beard!